So this morning I was up at 6.25am, straight to the loo for my morning pee before I weigh myself, get to the scales & remove my thermal socks & winter Pj's coz every bit helps :) Yay another 0.5kgs gone!!!!!
So in total my stats are as follows:
Have lost 0.5kgs this week 85.4kgs
Have lost 1.8kgs since 13th Feb 2012
Have lost 7kgs since 16th Jan 2012
Have lost 12kgs since Sept 2011
WHOOP WHOOP!!!
Now for my stats in measurements, coz I was feeling a little down at how slow the weight was going I wanted to see how that was moving along.
Have lost 15cm's since 13th Feb 2012
Have lost 38.5cm's since 16th Jan 2012
Have lost 81 cm's since Sept 2011
Another WHOOP WHOOP!!!
So looking at what I have achieved I should be pretty chuffed at where I have got, but I'm not completely. I am being a bit silly & playing mind games with myself. I know I could achieve better results if I work harder & push myself more but I also know that can hinder me & I can derail myself with getting where I want to be.
My problem is that I am comparing myself to others & seeing the massive results that they are getting & thinking man why aren't I pulling the bigger numbers etc... This is really stupid but I am going to the Finale Party in May for the Michelle Bridges 12WBT end of Round 1 for 2012 & this is my 1st round & I have given myself till the end of the year to get to my ultimate goal weight.
This is my reward from my hubby & I am sooooo excited & happy that I get to go but I keep thinking oh great I am going to be the FAT friend still even with my weight loss. You see I get to share this with 2 of my friends, Cass who is the one who inspired me to join up & do this program after losing 15kgs on the 1 round she did last year Cass is on her 2nd round now. Mandy is my other close friend/cousin doing it too, Mandy & I are the same weight at the moment but she has a lovely statuesque figure where as I am a shorty, lol.
I keep telling myself my journey is my journey & no one else's so I shouldn't belittle myself & judge myself on others achievements, my lovely friends have worked hard to get to where they are & deserve the awesome results that they have achieved. So knowing that I have given myself till 16th Dec 2012 to be at my ultimate goal why am I doing this to myself, because I am impatient & I want it NOW!!! Another reason I think I am beating myself up about this is that I just saw these friends in early Jan this year & when I see them next I want them to see a difference. By no means am I jealous in the sense to what they have achieved because I am so happy with the dedication they have given to the program & find them to be so inspiring & I am completely proud of them both & super happy for how far they have come. I could however be jealous that they will be skinnier then me, lol, the evil green eyed monster appearing I think aaarrrggghhhh NO!!!!
In conclusion I have had my rant, tantrum & spat the dummy. Shared my issues as sharing is always good & realize that nit picking like I am isn't going to get me anywhere it's only going to hurt my journey & sabotage what I have already achieved. Secretly maybe that's what I want to do sabotage this journey, but you know what that isn't going to happen as I am much stronger then this silly voice in my head that keeps trying to tell me you have done well just be happy to where you have got already. Not going to happen I CAN & I WILL complete my journey till I get to my ULTIMATE GOAL!!!
For the month of February I made a challenge to walk/jog 100kms, I can happily say that I finished that goal today with my end result being 100.5kms, YAY!!!
I have made my next challenge for the month of March being 150km walk/jog & 300km bike, this sounds huge but when you break it down to 31 days it works out to be 4.8kms for the walk/jog part a day & 9.6kms for the bike ride a day so it's not that scary looking at it like that. So wish me luck in my March challenge & I will keep you informed in how I am going :)
Anyway thanks for reading my post & allowing me to share my ups & downs.
Remember it's all about Creating the LIFE I deserve!!!
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