Well it seems to be once a month I make an entry, so a bit to catch you up on.
So my last post was about "Old Me" visiting etc... I really thought if I shared with you all my thoughts & made a confession on how I was slipping up but getting onto it ASAP it would stop me from continuing to self sabotage. Short story is "Old Me" stayed for a longer visit then intended :( It really surprises me how fast old habits & bad habits at that, creep back in & it seems so easy to fall back into routines that will destroy all my hard work.
WHY??? It's the same question that always haunts me when I fall off track. Why am I doing this for? Why am I allowing these old habits back in? Why aren't I stronger? Why can't I control myself more? Why, Why, Why!!!
Ok so I have a back injury, I am aware that I made my back worse my continuing on with my Gym work-outs involving weights, not good. An excuse to make me feel better for falling off the wagon, it's not my fault, it can't be helped I have to take it easy, yeah yeah... The thing is I have an injury, so I need to work around it & and adjust my work-outs to what I can do & manage. Instead I used it as a "Get Out Free Jail Card" & took a long rest break.
In total I had around 4 to 5 weeks off from my normal exercise plan & did maybe 2 or 3 days a week of light exercise & nothing more. Over this time frame I also laxed on my eating, though I must be honest the eating side has never been my strong point anyway, still very much a work in progress. I kept justifying it to myself with well at least i'm not gaining, it's just that I wasn't losing really either.
Round 2 of Michelle Bridges has been a complete FAILURE!!! Ok so not a total complete failure I am 2.5kgs lighter then when I started, but that is a MASSIVE let down to what I had wanted to achieve.
Thankfully in the last week I have managed to find my mojo & get back into some good power walking with my girlfriend Ange. My friend Ange is a like an energizer bunny, on the go all the time & the girl doesn't have a slow mode button, she's my little speed demon friend who helps me to up my pace & I LOVE it!
Now that I have unloaded & yet again made a confession of my sins, it's time to get my butt moving & start dropping some more weight. How am I going to do that, by not using EXCUSES, by flexing my WILL POWER MUSCLE & by DETERMINATION, that's how I started this weight loss thing & that's how I am going to continue on with it.
Each day we make decisions in how we want our life to be, some days we are on fire other days you just want to go back to bed so the next day can begin. Me, well I have decided if it's a good day YAY, but if it's a bad day, I can always change that day & make it better. Yes we have the power to make life the way we want it to be, we just need to find the courage to do it & believe we can. I love to dream, but I also love making those dreams come true & I am already on my way :)